Here is a conversation I overheard the kids having among themselves.
“Where do you want to live when we grow up?”
Busanda: “I want to live in Georgia!”
Titus: “I’m going to live in England.”
Hannah: “I don’t know where I’m going to live yet, but I know I’ll definitely adopt from China.”
Luke: “You know guys, it doesn’t really matter where we want to live but that we go where God tells us to.”
Wow! I have to say overhearing this conversation brought tears to my eyes and joy to my heart.
As I have watched, on social media, so many of our friends, send their kids off to college or mission trips. Closing such a huge chapter of life and yet stepping into another very exciting but also unknown and a little scary chapter of life.
I can’t help but think we’ll be there soon. Not because I’m wishing these days away, but because I know, even though some days may seem long, the years are flying by.
So, even though we aren’t in that season yet. God has been teaching me to…
Trust in Him at all times…(Psalm 62:8a)
You know, as much as we all dread going through the trials and the not-so-fun-parts of life…they are vital to our refinement and growth in the Lord. More than anything they should be used to bring Him honor and glory, as with every aspect of our lives. So no surprise to me, God continues to teach me and call me deeper to Him while using this trial of Hannah’s many surgeries. One of them being…
Trusting The Lord With The Lives Of Our Kids.
Now when I say that, I’m not just meaning the sweet picture you get of a baby dedication. (which we believe is very important to do and have done with all our children) Or just the “knowing” that as parents and believers our kids belong to the Lord. No, I’m talking about when it hurts, when all the “pretty things” have been stripped away. When we’re scared. When we’re left with a choice. When we’re called to put action behind that faith and trust. Do we truly believe that He is more than enough for us? For our children?
One of the hardest moments for me, as a mom, walking this trial with Hannah, isn’t all the emotions leading up to the surgery, or the physical pain and nausea that is sure to come after her operation or even the physio and cleaning of the incision that I have to do or even the surgery itself. No. It’s when the nurses are wheeling her away from me and there is literally a red line that I cannot cross as they wheel her into the surgery room. During those brief but heartbreaking moments, Hannah looks at me with tears running down her face, until they turn a corner and my.heart.breaks.every.time.
There is really only one difference in those stages. Through all of those moments there are struggles and tears and yes, still laughter and joy. Always joy. But I will be the first to say none of it is fun nor is it easy. However, the difference…the one thing that sets that hardest moment apart from all the others…is…I cannot physically be WITH her.
And yet…she is not alone!
Because where I am restricted or limited as a human….I serve a God who is limitless.
As much as my heart yearns to be with her in that moment, to hold her hand, to wipe her tears away and give her comfort.
I know, the great Comforter is with her. I know that she is in His hands. I know He loves her with an unfailing love. A love that my human brain cannot even comprehend.
I know, that He will never leave her or forsake her. I know, that He will strengthen her, that He will help her, and that He will uphold her with His righteous right hand. We will stand on His promises because He is trustworthy.
Therefore, I know there is no better place for my children than the hands of our heavenly Father. He is more than enough.
So whether God leads them to Georgia, or England or China or down the street or five hours away or an ocean away or back into a surgery room…I will trust Him at all times! Because I know…He is with us, He is for us and He will never leave us.
Update on Hannah’s wrist: About 3 weeks ago we went for another check-up for Hannah’s wrist. Although, she has healed greatly from her big surgery in April, she has also gone through a growth spurt. So once again her ulna bone has grown faster than her radius bone and needs to be shortened. Her surgery is scheduled for the morning of this Thursday, the 24th. Please continue to pray with us for complete healing. All Glory to God!
But now thus says the Lord, He who created you, O Jacob, He who formed you, O Isreal: “Fear not , for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are Mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. Isaiah 43:1-2